I have one. I swear. I really do.
Please don’t hate me for not being around. I’ve wanted too, I love you all so much and I love this little blog to death, but the plain and simple truth is; I haven’t been able.
Mentally I haven’t been able.
This last 2D animation course has literally kicked my ass. Like, here is my ass now please kick it. I’ll even include a target for better aim.
On top of that, I had to stop writing Annie’s story.
I hated every minute of it.
I even cried. Buckets. I’m pretty sure I cried buckets. Annie was a part of my life for so long that I didn’t want to give her up. It physically HURT to give her up. I was so sure that a story with her in it would work if I simply worked at it enough. One day, one way, it would click and everything would fall into place and it would be awesome and I could finally say I DID THE THING.
Funny how life doesn’t work out like you want it too.
The nearest way I can figure it goes something like this:
1. I didn’t outline.
2. I rushed into NaNo foolishly assuming that the month worked for the last two stories I wanted to write, it would (obviously) work this go around.
3. I pushed myself to achieve the same results my friends did from the go ahead.
4. I treated it like a competition.
5. I’m in animation school and, sometimes, school takes precedence over other creative endeavors.
The biggest thing to put me in this mess, I think, is the simple fact that I talked about her too much. I gave myself deadlines, I talked up the story, I did all of the things I probably shouldn’t have and, in doing so, I think I sowed the seeds of the story’s inevitable downfall.
That isn’t to say that Annie won’t come back in some form or fashion but, when and if she does, I’m going to keep my mouth shut about her. No updates, no promises on releases, none of that. Not because I hate you guys, or I don’t want you to know what I’m working on, but because I don’t want to set an expectation that I can’t meet.
I hate letting myself down and, more importantly, I hate letting you guys down. Ya’ll have waited for so long, now I’m asking you to wait a little bit longer because I do, indeed, have a project going.
There are changes coming to the blog as well. It will still be a writing blog, oh dear me yes, but I’m also an artist and I’m working on a super secret thing that I hope to bring to you guys very soon. If only to placate you into not murdering me for breaking a promise or something. The reviews and whatnot WILL be coming back to this blog, however. I just don’t have the time to run two blogs simultaneously and do all of the other shit on my ever growing list. The BACARTIS will move here as well as a little store. With things to buy. Because we all like shiny things, yes?
And, to round everything off, for the next 26 weeks I will be blogging. About something. I joined a challenge because of reasons I can’t quite remember right now. The challenge is that there are 26 letters in the alphabet and 26 things to blog about using that letter in some way.
Which isn’t difficult if you really sit down and think about the mechanics of the thing.
Plus, I missed you guys!
But now I have to go. There’s only 24 hours in a day and finals are finally done.
Until we meet again!