Not like that or anything. More of a platonic thank-you-for-giving-me-my-thirty-minute-break type love. It’s a big thing. I normally don’t get it. On any given day that I have to work, I get in at 1500 and don’t see the light of the moon until 2130 (yes, military time people. Bahzinga.) The fact that I get to sit down and write in my blog on an actual break is huge to me.
So, around this time people are already breaking their new years resolutions and realising that there’s no point in really making them, because lofty goals like that are too damned hard to keep too or even remember.
Kind of like dieting.
Not really like dieting. Weight Watchers is awesome. They guilt you into checking in every day with that damned points system. Fad dieting is the bad one. Anyway, back to my point. I don’t do New Year’s resolutions. I change so much from day to day already that it’s hard enough just to keep track of what socks I should be wearing and why the ones on my feet don’t look quite right.
This year is different.
I have some resolutions. Not to lose weight (I’ve done that, thanks to my job and stress) but to actually finish my book. I’ve said it and said it and said it I don’t know how many times, but this time I mean it.
I. Want. It. Done.
It’s not like it’s hard or anything. Hell, the framework is there, I just have to put it together. But, the funny thing about writing; you can’t rush it. I’ve tried. If you’ve paid attention to my other posts you’ll know how well that worked out for me. I’ve gotten depressed, angry, exasperated; cried, screamed, ranted, raved, hated the whole world and everyone in it. I’ve even sat and compared myself to other writers (do that if you want a quick torture session) and always, always found myself short. Always.
I’m pretty sure I’m a glutton for punishment. That and I just naturally hate anything I do artistically, so, you know, it all works out for me.
I even like the story! I really do. I’m pretty sure it’s not going to rock the Steampunk world or anything, but I think it’s pretty cool! That counts for something, right?
So, yes. One of my New Year’s Resolutions is to get my book done and over with.
And, dammit, this blog is going to help me.